Being vulnerable is not easy ... it's something I need to work on, it's something I think all people need to work on ... so here's me opening up and being vulnerable in hopes that I can help or touch someone through our savior, Jesus Christ.

Ever stuff things and then just blow up ... yeah, I did that yesterday, not something I'm proud of obviously. It's been a BUSY couple of weeks for my husband ... church meetings, fire meetings, fire calls, work, etc. I love being home with my girls, absolutely more then anything ... but last night I had just had enough of not having him around and tackling everything alone. Ever feel frustrated like that? Soooo after he got home from his 2 1/2 hour church meeting, I lost it and yelled at him. :( I then left because I had a worship team meeting at 7 ... I knew the devil was smiling at my reaction. I let him in, I let him win in that moment. I got home from my meeting and sat down with Robert and admitted I was wrong ... why's it so hard sometimes to put your guard down and admit you're wrong? I want a husband who works for the Lord, always ... and that's what he does when he's busy with the church ... and I want a husband who serves his community and that's what he does when he spends time at those fire meetings or fire calls ... and I chose to look at it differently and let the devil overtake me. Ugh. Thankfully our relationship is full of grace ... and we talked it out and we saw things from both my perspective and his ... our conversation led to making sure we 'check in' with each other and how we're feeling more often. So in the midst of our argument, God brought good out of it. He never seizes to amaze me ... things in life can be hard, but trusting God and being willing to listen for his voice makes a difference. He wants us to let him in our life in every single aspect ... and that's something I'm working on daily.

Job 37:5 God's voice is glorious in the thunder. We can't even imagine the greatness of his power. 

Easter 2014

Our Easter weekend was BUSY. I wanted to host this year so I let my family know that Easter this year was going to be at the Wix household. 

Now I know that preparing not only for the meal, but also preparing your home for a bunch of people is a lot of work ... but boy, I don't think I realized just how much time it takes, especially because I am the type of person that likes things just so! :) Thank you Mother for that! ... and now I appreciate you even more!!! As parents Robert and I are trying to teach our girls that family works together to keep a house running, always ... so I had the best help I could ask for, my girls & my wonderful husband!!

Saturday morning we finished doing some little things around the house after the fireman pancake breakfast and then in the afternoon is was time to cook and bake. My Mom and Chelsey came over and we made salads, prepared baked potatoes for baking the next day, made dips, cleaned veggies and so on ... something I'll always cherish is time spent in the kitchen with my family, especially my Mom and sisters. That is not saying that I'm a good cook, for the record, but I try! :) 

Sunday morning for me began at 4:30 because I had to get the turkey in the oven, potatoes in the roaster, corn & macaroni in the crockpot, etc. ... I'm a morning person usually, but 4:30 was EARLY ... however, I was preparing for my family to come over and for my girls to spend time with their cousins and for them to see that family time is the best time spent. I loved every second of it!

I got in the tub, took a quick bath and couldn't wait to wake my girls up and get them all dolled up in their cute maxi's!! :) As a Mother of 4 girls there is nothing more that I love then dressing them up somewhat alike ... I'm going to cherish this as along as I can!!!! Sadly, I'm positive that day will come to an end.

Miss Colby woke up not feeling the best ... selfishly I asked God why because I was soooo excited to host Easter in our new home!! I kept pushing through hoping that she'd forget about not feeling good (which who would just forget that you feel like junk? Not me.) and become her cheery little self ... I was hopeful and prayed that God would help her feel better, just for today. Well thankfully she did!!!

Youth leaders ... on top of everything this Easter, Robert and I are youth leaders, and Easter morning breakfast is served by us leaders and the high school youth ... so busy was an understatement that morning!! Thankfully I had Aunt Chelsey to help ... so Sunday morning before church service was a success! :) Thank you Jesus!! 

 As I was sitting in church that morning with Eden on my lap ... I tried to put myself in Mary's position, seeing her son being tortured. I couldn't imagine ... ever. I get mad when someone picks on my kid, or calls them a name ... literally I want to punch them, no matter the age. Jeesh that sounds terrible but I think any Mom can relate. To think of the work that God had to do in Mary's heart in order for Jesus' crucifiction to happen ... is crazy and mind boggling.  I went up to sing with all the praise singers when it was time in our service for special music ... I remember standing up there singing and wishing that the congregation would stand up and we would all rock out together praising Jesus ... he deserves that, always. If there is one thing as a Mother I hope to do it is to teach my girls about Jesus and the wonderful things he does and has done. Thank you Jesus ... you are worthy of our praise. ALWAYS. 

Dinner at our home was a hit ... tons of food ... tons of laughs ... kids running and screaming and laughing. It couldn't have been more perfect and I can't wait to do it again!

Jesus - you are amazing. Thank you for carrying my sin ... thank you for grace ... Lord I love you and want to be more like you. Amen.

Well here goes nothing ... I love reading other people's blogs and wanted to started one for our family. I wanted some place to write our story, and the funny, or not so funny things that go on in our life together as a family of 6. 
We'll start with this morning ... I'm sure many of you have crazy households during the week when it's time to rush out the door ... well, ours is absolutely no exception! Some mornings everything goes smoothly, or those mornings we have to deal with just minor 'issues' ... and then there's some mornings where everything goes wrong, from the undies I laid out the night before, the hair, the right jeans aren't washed, no one wants to brush their teeth, heaven forbid if we'd listen the night before and unpack the school bag and oh my goodness we're having cereal for breakfast the third day in a row ... I could go on for awhile if I really wanted to, but my point I think you get. :) While I wouldn't change any of the memories that go along with 4 girls in a home, I am in favor of the 'smooth' mornings where we have just minor issues!
This morning, April 23, 2014 was funny, now that I'm looking back at it ... as I was doing my makeup, Eden runs into my room with a whole lot of hip action and sassy and tells me that Colby called her .... wait for it .... 'dick' ... while I'm trying not to laugh, I tell her that I'm running behind and she's going to need to talk to Daddy and he'll handle it. So I listen to her tell Robert the whole story, while Colby is yelling and crying from the bathroom that she most certainly did not call Eden 'that'. Robert gets the girls both in the kitchen and talks to them and explains that he can not tolerate lying ... so with that gives them both many chances to come clean and admit if they are lying or not. Well as I'm sure you can guess neither of them admitted to lying ... so Robert one more time gives them a chance and explains that if someone comes 'clean', he will not spank them ... and if not, they will both get a spankin'. They both ended up getting spanked and Miss Colby felt pretty bad the rest of the morning, she never fessed up to calling Eden a name but she didn't have to ... her causing Eden to get a spankin' as well as herself was enough punishment in itself, I could see it in her eyes the hurt she felt that not only did she cause her own hurt, but she allowed her sister to take some of that blame when she did nothing. I think it was a good lesson learned for her. 
Tonight I think we'll do our devotions on being honest and look at what God says about that. Thankful for the learning moments in our home, despite the chaos that goes along with them.
Proverbs 12:22 - Lying lips are an abomination to the Lord, but those who act faithfully are his delight.

Thank you Jesus for allowing me to love, teach and be the Mother to your children ... please guide me as their teacher to be the best they can be. Amen.